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- Mood:
sleepy
Wish me luck!
- Music:~My Brand New Love~ (Hatsune Miku)
After the funeral, we didn't plan on going in the usual procession, but the hurst left us! Its a good thing we knew how to get to the cemetary... Anyways, it didn't go the way that it usually does, the grave diggers had messed up and made the hole too small and they had to make the hole bigger (on a small note they dug the hole so close to my grandpa's grave that you could see his concrete vault, which is the way my grandma wanted it right next to him, if not directly on top of him), so the concrete vault wasn't in the hole, which led to the hardest part for me...when they put the concrete top on I lost it. I think that was the hardest part for me....It was a good funeral though, but I am glad it is over, yesterday was very hard for me to deal with.
I wanted to thank you all for helping me, and keeping my mind off of everything...I couldn't have gotten through it alone.
- Mood:Thankful
What do you do when someone you love so much leaves, when someone you knew would always be there for you is no longer around to comfort you whenever you needed it?
As of this moment, I don't think that it has completely sank in what has happened yet, but when it finally does, I expect that I will be a complete and utter mess...
I WILL MISS YOU GRANDMA!!!!! May you rest in peace, I will never forget you, or the things you have taught to me. I LOVE YOU!
- Mood:
touched
So...If you know anything about me, you know that my friends and my family mean everything to me, that and I don't get angry EVER! Well I found out something that got me so pissed off that I wanted to punch someone. Well, first I don't know if you know or not, but ma grandmere is not doing so well, we expect that she won't make it to Christmas, but anyways...sappy stuff aside...my family "Hired" this chick to live with my grandmother to take care of her, and to give her a companion. Well, yesterday she took off to go get diapers for her baby, and I know what your thinking, no big deal right? Well, she didn't come back till 2:15 today, and what's worse, she left her 6 year old son for my grandmother to babysit while she was gone...Well, needless to say, she got fired...Although, that is not all that should have happened to her, if I would have been there, she would probably be in the hospital, and I in jail, but it would have been worth it for messing with my family...That is the only thing in this world that gets me mad!!! Not only mad, but royally pissed off! YOU DON'T MESS WITH MY FAMILY!!! If that B!+(# ever shows her face around my family again, she is gonna find herself in a world of hurt.
- Mood:
pissed off - Music:Trick and Treat (Vocaloid)
Well...I had a feeling that this week would be one of the longest weeks of this semester, and so far it has been...and its only monday...I think. Yesterday, I got back to school, and the first thing that happened was me doing laundry...sounds normal right? Wrong! I was going to change my taglight out and guess what, I had washed my bulbs. I stuck them in my bag to bring them up here, and forgot to take them out and I dumped my bag in my laundry basket not thinking and threw them in the washer. Yay Stupidity! I don't even know if they will work anymore. The good thing is that they didn't break... Then the drama broke out in the hallway...Whoo-hoo feels like were back in high-school! Seriously, we're in college leave the drama with the graduation caps...
Today, nothing bad has happened...except that I enrolled for next semester, YAY! NOT! I have 8 classes and only 13 hours...I am going to be soo busy next semester its not funny. I didn't even get to take my relaxing class, Yoga, because it was already full...Although, it could be worse...I could have to have more hours...But then I would be taking a lot of crap classes. Today feels like it will drag on forever...
Will it ever end?
- Mood:
exhausted
Ok...sorry I haven't been on here in a while, I kinda forgot my password...Oops! But anyways, this hopefully is the start of me actually updating kind-of reguraly. Right now I am trying to not drown in the rain...^_^...It is raining in Tahlequah and has been since about 6-ish, there is so much water around that it flooding the basement...SUCK...but my room is dry, I can't say that for my pants, but my room is dry. Anyways...I am hungry so I'm gonna fix me some food. See you around!
Blessed Be
- Mood:Soaking wet!
So, my life right now is sooo very horrible...let me start off by saying that i have never felt more stupid than I have this semester... It started off just thinking that I got some bad teachers, but now I am thinking that I am just not as smart as I thought I was. All of my life I have been one of the smartest people in all of my classes, and now not only am I not, I am probably one of the dumbest people in all of my classes. I should just give up now, I have no reason to continue going when I already know that nothing is going to change...everthing I try just doesn't work...I have tried to study I have tried everthing I know how to do and it is just not working...Mabye I am just meant to flip burgers at McDonald's for the rest of my life.........whats the point?
- Mood:
sad
Ok I have been stuck at college for a while...if I'm not able to go home this weekend I will have been here for three weeks straight... it sucks!!! I really want to go home I miss my Mommy.
- Mood: Homesick
- Mood: lonely
So I just went and talked to financial aid and guess what!!!...they haven't even started working on my stuff yet...so that means if they don't do it like today...I probably won't be able to come back next semester, which wouldn't be that bad, but I really need to just keep going...because if I don't I probably won't come back at all!
- Mood: pissed off
Ok so I have finally beat the tree.....in Dawn of Mana that is...and I was so proud of myself!!! YAY!!!!!!!
I have been sooo tired lately and I don't know why...I am beginning to think that something is wrong with me. I really hope that there isn't, but I can't help but think that there is...on another completely random note I can't beat the giant tree in Dawn of Mana and it is making me mad...grrr.....
I love you Andrea...Sarah you still make me smile!!!
- Mood:
contemplative
You know I might complain about this semester, but I have realizied that this is college, I am gonna have bad semesters, teachers, classes, ect...but I just have to roll with the punches, or so to speak. I would really rather not have any semesters like this, I would rather have semesters like last semester, when I loved all of my classes and I still had time to see my friends, but I guess you have to have bad ones as well. So to look on the bright side, this semester only has about two months left, and if I can make it through it I will be so much better!!!
p.s. Sarah F. you make me smile!
- Mood:Understanding
This semester SUCKS!!!!! If I didn't think that I wouldn't come back afterwards I would just take a semester off...but my problem with that is that I don't think that I would come back afterwards. My Bio teacher needs to be drug out into the middle of the street and beaten with a rusty pole. He has no idea how to teach to people who are not science majors...he won't even explain what he is trying to say in terms that we can understand he dances around each and every question that is asked of him. I really hate him...yes I said HATE him! I have decided that if I don't make an "A" on this next test that I am going to drop the class...I really hate to do that, but if I have to, I have to, I am NOT going to fail a class because of a stupid teacher!
On a completely random note I am so glad that I have my friends.
Thanks for reading my venting, sorry about that but sometimes you just have to do it.
- Mood:
frustrated
So I am sitting here waiting on my next class...I hate having to wait for anything...now don't get me wrong I don't mind waiting on somethings, but mostly I don't like it.......oh, i need to start walking to class...lol!
- Mood:
blah - Music:Innocent Sorrow
So just for an update i did make singers!!! YAY! But it along with everything else is taking a toll on my sleep. I haven't been able to sleep very well lately... I wish I could though...sad day....... So nothing really exciting is going on...it kinda sucks, but I'll be ok.
- Mood: SAD DAY!!!!
So right now i am "singing my heart out" or so to speak...i am trying to get ready for auditions for singers...i am hoping beyond all hope that i actually make it. i believe that it would be sooooooooooooooo (and yes i know i AM a dork!) fun.
